it doesnt come with age or money....

Self respect doesn’t come with age or money…not that I thought it did… the other day I got together with friends…u know how it is with them, even if u meet them after months there is a comfort level that cant be established with JUST ABOUT ANYONE. So anyways a drive to the India gate for chuski (it is supposedly very famous) was all we were looking forward to. Remembering the old days which will NEVER come back and catching up we ordered the chuski…(for those who arnt chuski lovers…at India gate u see lines of cars and this guy shouting at the top of his lungs….CHUSKI CHUSKI…TASTI CHUSKI…COME ….) English with a typical hindi accent…anyways just when we started having the delicious but messy chuski a young boy around 10 year old came to our car to sell sculptures…we weren’t interested and just thanked him but he was just had to show us all the variety. He said ‘ aap budha lew lijiye…ye bahut lucky hota hai, nahi to budha family…nahi to boat le lijiye…ye bhi bahut lucky hai’ he kept taking these sculptures out of his shirt…and all I said was ‘hume nahi chahiye, aap ye bechne ki jagah padte kyu nahi ?’ his reply to this was ‘me din me school jata hu aur raat ko ye bechta hu, aap le lo bahut lucky hai, mere paas bahut variety hai’ if it was otherwise I woun’t have given it a thought but his hard work and sincerity made him ask him to join us for a chuski, all he said was ‘me aise kisi se koi cheez nahi leta, me aapko aaapke liye kam price laga dunga lekin aise kuch nahi lunga’ …its been a week this incident happened but I still havnt forgotten THOSE words…and I NEVER WILL…

ROYALTY...would you like to be treated like one???

I was just going through the royal way of living, specially their rooms and all that and I enjoyed looking at the antique and RICH furniture/articles so much that I myself started wondering how it would have been to stay in a palace with soooo many rooms and all the heavy velvet curtains and NO PRIVACY. Or to put it in a more polite way I say someone at your call always. I mean I would love to have such a fancy bed with the extra Special bedding and deep colours (which bore you real fast...(I guess that’s why they had many rooms, 1 se bore ho to dure me chale jao) anyways so instead of the real fan (I mean the one mankind created thanks to electricity) you have someone fanning you with the soft and large and beautiful feather fans. (I mean I would probably die of heat coz I would hate seeing the other person getting tired of fanning me…it is heavy you know). I like antique jewelry and furniture and all that but I really don’t think that I can survive in the ROYAL atmosphere for more than a week. I would love to be pampered but not at the cost of loosing the life I have…and I would hate having far off rooms. I mean in that case out of lazyness I just wont go nand see my parents…k now I guess my thoughts are going places so I better stop here…before I enter the dream land againg…but im quite sure that almost all of us have a weird thought process at times…don’t you???

By the way…Just imagine me writing a blog with the vintage pen(the feather one)….ahhh NO SPELL CHECK…I m sure NO ONE would read my blogs coz half the spelling would be wrong ;)… and the ink would spill all over(that is one thing im capable of doing)…

WOULD WE FORGIVE HIM IF HE WASN'T A STAR???

Now that sanjay dutt has been sentenced to six years imprisonment, the media surely has got lots to write about. I mean breaking news another topic for discussion. Infact even radio channels are having caller programes and asking people HOW DO U FEEL ABOUT THE WHOLE….DO U THINK JUSTICE HAS BEEN DONE TO HIM….I mean…please …and how can I just blame the media for creating hype, there are many callers who are crying, not eating coz their munnabhai has been awarded a sentence…I mean I can almost bet that if he was set free these same people would come out complaining that ‘HE HAS BEEN SET FREE COZ HE IS A STAR, HE HAS MONEY AND POWER. ITS JUST THE POOR WHO HAVE TO SUFFER AND ALL THAT’ …I wonder how the PUBLIC would be satisfied and why care for their satisfaction. They WILL TALK whatever happens, they will give their views…and the have full freedom to do so…but does their view really matter…I mean would it cut down on a MISTAKE sanjay did years ago…more than a 100 crore are riding on the actor… filmmakers are ready to freeze their projects to show regards towards dutt… and a legend like dilip kumar has filed an affidavit endorsing dutt’s character and if that wasn’t all bets were being put before the sentence was announced as to what the final verdict would be…I mean where would all this lead…I agree he has suffered enough but would we still be in favour of freeing him if he was just a citizen (and not a star)…I like his films too and I am not against him…infact, I too felt bad but we cant just let such MISTAKES be repeated and we cant just forget what happened…can we???

HEELS ON THE FIELD`

We got to start shooting for our comic strips and we still haven’t arranged the costumes so today when I like a fool decided to wear high heals did we decide to go shopping, visit a few designers and stylists. Get our idea through their creative heads and get them to make it soon. And by the way the weather will be nice otherwise, maybe rain a little and be little pleasant but today that we had to go out and desperately needed a good weather how can god be nice to us. So anyways went to this designer at shahpur jat and it was three of, two girls including me (rohit, anannya and me)and the minute we entered, (firstly it was heaven thanks to the ac) we started looking at his collection dying to ask the price( obviously we dint INITIALLY, and good we dint coz whats the use) so anyways we got to a little work checked out his collection, made a few sketches ourselves to give an exact picture of what we are looking for, try out a few things and finally when we have given the measurements, decided on the style and material so we thought we must ask what the whole thing would cost us….and thank god we did coz it just wasn’t fitting in our budget and that too just the stitching cost, the material would cost us another 2000 bucks and then we count ignore the accessories whose cost we hadn’t calculated yet. So now we have got a designers ideas and ours and so we might just get the costume done by a normal tailor who has normal charges…so anyways we move out in the killing heat thinking what to do and that is exactly when miss anaannya’s stomach tells her how hungry we are and how we must forget about everything but how to get something in our tummies and it wasn’t a bad thought since we were already past our lunch hour so we found a mc Donalds closeby( thank god they have a quick service and have a branch almost everywhere ) and trust me were we hungry or what….within like 5 mins of getting our meal we were done…and then started off again, but trust me by that time we my feat were killing me specially since im just up from viral, not got enough time to recover and here I go again. But finally even though the costumes isn’t ready we got a fair idea about were to arrange it from and a plan made out so we head back to office and that’s when I finally got to remove those high (killing) heals and ahhhh (u need to see how red my feet are thanks to the long walks) well one thing I surely learnt is next time we go for shoot shopping, im gonna be in a pair of sports shoes…..

LIFE....

So I host live shows and that’s how I came across a young girl at an event…k I dint know how young she was then…anyways I meet this sweet girl who is getting married and all excited about it…so while talking to her I found out that she is 20…(a year younger than me) and so is her fiancé and both of them are in second year of college…k so the first shock hit me then…(k I wasn’t exactly shocked but surprised for sure) and they got engaged just 15 days back…so they know each other for 20 odd days (here came the second one) the guy does NOTHING…he has a family business and all that but as of now…he does nothing…(third one)… so k I asked her if she was forced into it and she said no…she was mentally prepared and has no issues…(btw she belongs to an educated rich family…or shud I say baniya family) seeing the shock on my face all she said was im from a baniya family so its like this in our families…so anyways if she has no probs then its cool…but then the next thing which came up was that she will discontinue her studies…I mean its k if u wanna get married young and all that but u are not being allowed to complete ur graduation…hello I mean in which century are u living…and even if her in-laws dint allow her, atleast the guy should have…I mean he is the so called modern guy so why cunt he try and convince his family to let her complete her studies specially since he plans to complete his graduation…n btw she does want to complete her course but all she said was at least they are letting me wear jeans…I mean hello…wearing jeans…studying further or being independent…arnt they DIFFERENT… well all I can wish for her is that she stays happy with the kind of life she has chosen for herself and sometime in life does complete her education…but then again who am I to write so much about someone I hardly know…specially since I don’t know what my future holds for me…..

A TRUE SUNDAY

K so yesterday after ages I spent a real Sunday which wasn’t planned….as most of the Sundays I was doing an event in the evening, a few meetings in the first half were also lined up. And not just that since it was my only off day from office I had an appointment with the hairdresser in the morning. So that meant I had to wake up early on a Sunday which I did and just before going for a shower I got a call saying the show has been cancelled. So I dint know whether to be happy or upset so at that time I got upset coz I had planned my day accordingly. And had cancelled other plans for the event. So I got a little angry with the agency. Showed a little attitude and told them I would charge for last minute cancellation which I would. And then later got angrier coz I had to reschedule everything. And then the lazy me got over the angry me so canceled most of my meeting postponed a few and tried sleeping. I mean I never had to try sleeping but since I have started working I just cant seem to sleep during the day. Something just dint seem right so after half an hour of trying I got up and saw some tv ordered a pizza, fought with my sister for no apparent reason but since there was not much to do, that seemed to be the best pastime ;)….and btw the tv that I watched was like after weeks…ya …and then did some packing for a trip and organized a few pending accounts and stuff like that and then finally went to the hairdresser and came back all smiles coz I love my new haircut…so that was truly a Sunday spent, now I am waiting for another such lazy day but don’t think I would value it too much if I get it to often, isn’t it??? One shunt be too greedy:)

LAKSHYA.....our lakshya

Theater is something which has been a part of my life since I can remember. In school I was a part of it and things dint change for me when I joined college…infact, when I got admission in KNC and when I was going through the prospectus later I read about all the societies active in the college and was so excided that I wanted to join all of them. But when I joined college I realized that u can only join one coz that itself takes up all ur time and demands ur complete commitment. So I gave the auditions for the dramsoc and since I was trying for street theater I had to be real loud and audible in all sides of the choupal….(yes the choupal is an intergral part of KNC…it is somewhere you would head first if you wana look for anyone.) and the theater group literally treated it as private property…(that doesn’t mean they dint like others around but they were around for sure) so the audible me got through the first round of audition and waited for the results to the final round which was to come after a day…so a days waste was something which I wasn’t ready for and nor was I sure they would take me…u knw u can never be too sure of what happens so I also gave the auditions for dance society and once I saw my name on the dramsocs final list, there I was all smiles…it is famously known as LAKSHYA and I would say that my senoiurs cunt keep a more appropriate name…our lakshya (aim) wasn’t to win (which we did quite often) but to educate, to perform on topics close to our hearts, to perform on issues which concern the society and our effort could just make a lot many people aware of what these issues actually were…we weren’t a society which were just into acting but each of us had a bond, we were not just people working together but we soon became friends. We were not seniors versus junior but a team…we were lakshya…and we always will be a part of it, even if we are no more performing…wat say gals….still rocking…

Where is your common sence???

Our country is full of beauty. I guess you just need to look around. I know that you must be thinking that it is equally dirty crowed and full of uneducated people. That is true to an extent but that doesn’t mean that we ignore the beauty or make no effort to make our surroundings better. Forget that atleast we should make an effort to not litter around or atleast not spoil monuments and public property. I know I am sounding as if im ready to give a lecture but im in no such mood. Its just that a visit to the forts made me realize that we have a great heritage but most of us just want to spoil it. I mean why would any normal human being scribble on walls of these monuments…u don’t do that at ur place, do u…I mean in that case it is understandable coz that is the way u are and no one can do anything about it. U are born to spoil things rather than do any good. And if you don’t do that to ur bed room walls then why scribble your lovers name with yours and all that…will scribbling make your love stronger or you just wana show off to ur girl friend how cool and devoted u r y making stupid hearts all over the place… I mean it is a question which will remain unanswered coz I guess people who do it themselves wunt be able to explain why they do it. K this is not it, one goes to such places to appreciate art or heritage or beauty and I mean artistic beauty but SOME just go to appreciate a different kind of beauty….girls …I mean how wela can u be… u have nothing to do in this busy scenario except for looking at the tourists. I mean im sure the nice girls wunt even bother to give u a single look forget a second look. And im also writing all this but cant do anything about it. Common sence is something that CANNOT be gifted to anyone. I mean these are basic things that you don’t need to be told. And if though there is no need, there are a number of posters which ask you not to scribble or dirty a place or guide u to a dust bin. I guess even more than education what is important is your being a decent citizen and that is the only way people will stop complaing and make an effort to make this country a lot better than what it is…so wat say…should we all start from ourselves.

am i mad or is everyone

What is wrong with the world or shud I put it like what is wrong withal THE GUYS OF THE WORLD…I mean there is seriously something wrong…either with the world or me so its beter I say the problem is with me coz it surely cant be with the whole world…u knw majority wins so…or I think somethink is wrong with people who are in any kinda relation… I wonder if there were any problems when we weren’t in a relationship…I wonder if it is necessary to have lotsa problems attached to a relationship that also gives you a lot of happiness. I wonder is it worth it to sulk for ages for 5 minutes of THAT happiness…and if it isn’t worth it then why does everyone around seem to be in a relation.

feeling blue...

One of my closest friend has got admission in Mumbai …and I don’t know how to react…I mean ofcourse im happy for her but its kinda weird. I mean the whole thing that she won’t be in delhi anymore and all that…we are friends since the last 3 years throughout college we have shared everything but guys ;) k so now u l say there are cell phones and mails and orkut and all that but still its kinda weird…I might not be talking to her everyday anyway but still its not the same when you are in different locations you know…its like here she was always there…I mean she has done everything for me…(we have even traveled in a DTC bus together, which we didnt otherwise…so that was a big deal for both of us….then we have walked for kilometers …had a ride on a tonga)…I mean she even fills all my forms…all my college life she has filled all my forms . infact all entrance forms that I filled were as she forced me to apply…even though we are extremely different people with the same zodiac…we have never fought…ya NEVER fought…yes we have had our arguments and our cold wars but never fought…we have made a film together and made all college projects together…I mean even if we would get a zero we would still stick to making them together(though we never got a zero…and dint do that bad) we have shopped together…infact I guess only my mom and avantika (my friend )can actually know what will look nice on me…without my being there also she can guess what will suit me… I mean we tried the underpass drive for the first time (not that we are bad drivers but we wanted som1 to be around incase something happens) but vaise she thinks im not a very good driver …anyways that isn’t true… Jwe can spend hours together without giving a dam about the place…we always have something to talk…I mean I really cant recall if we were ever at a loss of words…but now I am because I really cant put into words how im feeling coz I still don’t know how im feelin…I mean as I was saying im happy for her but who will fill all my forms yaar…k jokes apart I really wish this distance puts NO DISTANCE between us and we still call each other when we need to cry or just say senseless thing or just talk about guys or just bitch…I mean all I can say is u rock babes n I wish u all the very best for ur life ahead…and im gonna miss u lots and if I write anymore then…u know…so ….

why do we do wahat we do??

Sometimes I wonder why people work…do they work to get satisfaction or do they work to earn…or is it both…as a lot of people SAY…(say because I feel they just say it and don’t mean it) I mean u surely do work to earn but then if u say u are satisfied with ur work then most of the time u r just saying it for the sake of saying it…I mean u might not like ur job and are probably just doing it coz of a nice package…or u might be in love with ur work but are unsatisfied with the package…so y say that u r satisfied…and even if u r satisfied with ur work and ur package(u r veryyyyyyyy lucky) do u ACTUALLY get time to enjoy life or spend the money that u r constanly running after….im not saying its bad to give importance to money or its wrong to have a big package…ofcourse not..i mean who wunt want a comfortable life and who wunt want to spend widout thinking…but does it actually happen that way…I doubt it…I mean now adays if you are paid well u are surely screwed well…too well at that…I mean u probably spend around 12 hrs in ur workplace and just come home to sleep…and with a day or two off u just want to relax or maybe go out just to satisfy urself that U DO HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE…but do u actually…forget social do u have time for your own family…people u actually wanted to earn for …I mean if both husband and wife are working …are you just sharing a weekend relationship…im not saying that you shunt marry …or u shunt work…all I wana know is ARE U HAPPY…and if u r …then are u just saying that to make urself happy…or rather trying to tell me…

Today was one day I can never forget…even if I want to , my mom WONT LET ME…EVER……I had an exam today…..(I don’t think I need to mention that I wasn’t prepared for the exam, I mean that goes without saying….right) so anyways I left for the exam and reached the institute 30 minutes before the commencement of the exam, so I was all set to go in but the issue was that I could not see any other car or for that matter too many people around. So I checked if the date was correct, checked everything but one……right the venue…k it was almost 20 minutes to go… n I am not too good with the roads so ……things became worse….i was half on the phone and rest half asking auto walas for the way …I mean everyone in Delhi will try and tell you the way even if they don’t know you…and trust me if you are a girl and ask for the way guys will try and make the route sound longer so they can talk to you for a longer time…so try asking a girl right isn’t that what you thinking…wrong…that’s worse…coz most of them wont know and even if they do, they will not be able to tell you… so stick to the guys and try to make out from their face if they will be knowing or not…. coz you don’t really want to go OUT WITH THEM…anyways coming back to point , I dint have that much time to do the analysis and all that…so just went whatever I was told and finally reached right on time…(btw I later realized that I took a realllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy looooooooooooong route). Anyways the story still doesn’t end coz I saw my roll no. checked the room no. n left in a hurry not bothering to do a second check… So a confident me dint need any assistant and just went to the wrong room…thank god I had the brain to see that it was the WRONG ROOM… And by now people have started getting their question papers and I don’t even have a seat. And guess what I knew a lot of people there and was just getting embarrassed. Any ways found the right room soon n grabbed my seat. Got the question paper and realized… that I don’t know a lot……so for the first time I felt like walking out of the examination hall. But I still wanted to give it a shot… guess what I attempted all but one…n I think they weren’t too bad… but the best part was when I came across a question that said…YOUR JOURNEY TO THE EXAMINATION HALL… can you buy that . NO I dint attempt it coz then they would surely not take me but I still wanted to take it all out so here I am making all of you a part of my journey and I hope that after reading this you guys won’t make such a careless mistake… anyways this has taught me a lesson for now but trust me guys I will forget it after a few days and would go on making silly mistakes …just the way since the last 20 years, after every exam I decide that from next time I will start studying before the last day but of course it NEVER happens… So does it with you???

my first day at work...

K so today was my first day with my new project….at a new work place …like every1 else I had those jitters…not that I was nervous (that’s what I can never get)but just those thoughts and feelings ….about how would the people be…how would the work be…k n I was earlier doing hard core news n now shifted to entertainment so a serious face had to start smiling suddenly…. K n I don’t smile soo much… sooo…n that’s not all I was saying 350 words in 1 and half minute while here I have to let my words go deep down. Anyways it was a busy day n I love working n thankfully I had ample to do n guess what as if it wasn’t enough I was forced…yes forced to writ a blog….but now that I have started writing it …im quite enjoying it….so vineet u can be happy…that im finally doing as you wanted me to… well throughout the day I was getting messages from my x- colleagues and bosses n I dint even have time to reply…I hope they dint think I have forgotten them already coz people I HAVNT. I misseddddddd u guys like crazy while having lunch …specially coz it was good and we won’t have to bitch about bad food anymore n guess what today after ages I dint have to hear surrender’s (driver) voice n im sure he is the happiest person to see me going…but guys im sure he is gonna substitute me for someone…so lets see who is next on his hit list…. btw I hate him soooooo much coz he irritated me every morning with his not so surily voice n was always ready to fight and complaint about us…specially girls…..n obliges us by doin day n night shift…as if we are getting the money…anyways im gonna miss my old workstation but at the same time I am in love with the new….so just waiting for my team to join us in noida so we can all have whale of a time together…… right guys……btw I had a gr8 time today…n now I am tired so time to say goodnight to work….n hello to my folks….