feeling blue...

One of my closest friend has got admission in Mumbai …and I don’t know how to react…I mean ofcourse im happy for her but its kinda weird. I mean the whole thing that she won’t be in delhi anymore and all that…we are friends since the last 3 years throughout college we have shared everything but guys ;) k so now u l say there are cell phones and mails and orkut and all that but still its kinda weird…I might not be talking to her everyday anyway but still its not the same when you are in different locations you know…its like here she was always there…I mean she has done everything for me…(we have even traveled in a DTC bus together, which we didnt otherwise…so that was a big deal for both of us….then we have walked for kilometers …had a ride on a tonga)…I mean she even fills all my forms…all my college life she has filled all my forms . infact all entrance forms that I filled were as she forced me to apply…even though we are extremely different people with the same zodiac…we have never fought…ya NEVER fought…yes we have had our arguments and our cold wars but never fought…we have made a film together and made all college projects together…I mean even if we would get a zero we would still stick to making them together(though we never got a zero…and dint do that bad) we have shopped together…infact I guess only my mom and avantika (my friend )can actually know what will look nice on me…without my being there also she can guess what will suit me… I mean we tried the underpass drive for the first time (not that we are bad drivers but we wanted som1 to be around incase something happens) but vaise she thinks im not a very good driver …anyways that isn’t true… Jwe can spend hours together without giving a dam about the place…we always have something to talk…I mean I really cant recall if we were ever at a loss of words…but now I am because I really cant put into words how im feeling coz I still don’t know how im feelin…I mean as I was saying im happy for her but who will fill all my forms yaar…k jokes apart I really wish this distance puts NO DISTANCE between us and we still call each other when we need to cry or just say senseless thing or just talk about guys or just bitch…I mean all I can say is u rock babes n I wish u all the very best for ur life ahead…and im gonna miss u lots and if I write anymore then…u know…so ….

why do we do wahat we do??

Sometimes I wonder why people work…do they work to get satisfaction or do they work to earn…or is it both…as a lot of people SAY…(say because I feel they just say it and don’t mean it) I mean u surely do work to earn but then if u say u are satisfied with ur work then most of the time u r just saying it for the sake of saying it…I mean u might not like ur job and are probably just doing it coz of a nice package…or u might be in love with ur work but are unsatisfied with the package…so y say that u r satisfied…and even if u r satisfied with ur work and ur package(u r veryyyyyyyy lucky) do u ACTUALLY get time to enjoy life or spend the money that u r constanly running after….im not saying its bad to give importance to money or its wrong to have a big package…ofcourse not..i mean who wunt want a comfortable life and who wunt want to spend widout thinking…but does it actually happen that way…I doubt it…I mean now adays if you are paid well u are surely screwed well…too well at that…I mean u probably spend around 12 hrs in ur workplace and just come home to sleep…and with a day or two off u just want to relax or maybe go out just to satisfy urself that U DO HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE…but do u actually…forget social do u have time for your own family…people u actually wanted to earn for …I mean if both husband and wife are working …are you just sharing a weekend relationship…im not saying that you shunt marry …or u shunt work…all I wana know is ARE U HAPPY…and if u r …then are u just saying that to make urself happy…or rather trying to tell me…

Today was one day I can never forget…even if I want to , my mom WONT LET ME…EVER……I had an exam today…..(I don’t think I need to mention that I wasn’t prepared for the exam, I mean that goes without saying….right) so anyways I left for the exam and reached the institute 30 minutes before the commencement of the exam, so I was all set to go in but the issue was that I could not see any other car or for that matter too many people around. So I checked if the date was correct, checked everything but one……right the venue…k it was almost 20 minutes to go… n I am not too good with the roads so ……things became worse….i was half on the phone and rest half asking auto walas for the way …I mean everyone in Delhi will try and tell you the way even if they don’t know you…and trust me if you are a girl and ask for the way guys will try and make the route sound longer so they can talk to you for a longer time…so try asking a girl right isn’t that what you thinking…wrong…that’s worse…coz most of them wont know and even if they do, they will not be able to tell you… so stick to the guys and try to make out from their face if they will be knowing or not…. coz you don’t really want to go OUT WITH THEM…anyways coming back to point , I dint have that much time to do the analysis and all that…so just went whatever I was told and finally reached right on time…(btw I later realized that I took a realllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy looooooooooooong route). Anyways the story still doesn’t end coz I saw my roll no. checked the room no. n left in a hurry not bothering to do a second check… So a confident me dint need any assistant and just went to the wrong room…thank god I had the brain to see that it was the WRONG ROOM… And by now people have started getting their question papers and I don’t even have a seat. And guess what I knew a lot of people there and was just getting embarrassed. Any ways found the right room soon n grabbed my seat. Got the question paper and realized… that I don’t know a lot……so for the first time I felt like walking out of the examination hall. But I still wanted to give it a shot… guess what I attempted all but one…n I think they weren’t too bad… but the best part was when I came across a question that said…YOUR JOURNEY TO THE EXAMINATION HALL… can you buy that . NO I dint attempt it coz then they would surely not take me but I still wanted to take it all out so here I am making all of you a part of my journey and I hope that after reading this you guys won’t make such a careless mistake… anyways this has taught me a lesson for now but trust me guys I will forget it after a few days and would go on making silly mistakes …just the way since the last 20 years, after every exam I decide that from next time I will start studying before the last day but of course it NEVER happens… So does it with you???

my first day at work...

K so today was my first day with my new project….at a new work place …like every1 else I had those jitters…not that I was nervous (that’s what I can never get)but just those thoughts and feelings ….about how would the people be…how would the work be…k n I was earlier doing hard core news n now shifted to entertainment so a serious face had to start smiling suddenly…. K n I don’t smile soo much… sooo…n that’s not all I was saying 350 words in 1 and half minute while here I have to let my words go deep down. Anyways it was a busy day n I love working n thankfully I had ample to do n guess what as if it wasn’t enough I was forced…yes forced to writ a blog….but now that I have started writing it …im quite enjoying it….so vineet u can be happy…that im finally doing as you wanted me to… well throughout the day I was getting messages from my x- colleagues and bosses n I dint even have time to reply…I hope they dint think I have forgotten them already coz people I HAVNT. I misseddddddd u guys like crazy while having lunch …specially coz it was good and we won’t have to bitch about bad food anymore n guess what today after ages I dint have to hear surrender’s (driver) voice n im sure he is the happiest person to see me going…but guys im sure he is gonna substitute me for someone…so lets see who is next on his hit list…. btw I hate him soooooo much coz he irritated me every morning with his not so surily voice n was always ready to fight and complaint about us…specially girls…..n obliges us by doin day n night shift…as if we are getting the money…anyways im gonna miss my old workstation but at the same time I am in love with the new….so just waiting for my team to join us in noida so we can all have whale of a time together…… right guys……btw I had a gr8 time today…n now I am tired so time to say goodnight to work….n hello to my folks….